Please Let Me Go….

I ponder again and again the inevitability of
Day after day I wrestle with the master of this hell
If I could cut it from me I would sharpen the blade quickly
To hold myself captive to this prison is mine own ignorance
I am reminded every sunrise and sunset of this poisonous pursuit
I curse at myself for letting it become this
I have brought this treachery upon me
Why? The question requires an answer
I cannot come up with any words. I am speechless
I want out, I tell myself today
I no longer am a willing participant, but yet I play on
Forced by the allure of the elixir that awaits me
As freedom is just steps away
I taste again, and I am back in it’s vice fighting for my sanity
I want to tell the world of you, but in regret I purse my lips
For to be free of you is what I want, yet I embrace you all the more
I tell my heart to please let me go
I don’t want anymore. I’ve had all I can take. I want it to be over.